I wish we didn’t stay so far apart. But soon you’ll be miles away, and this distance will pale in comparison to that. I guess I just need to constantly remind myself that in years to come, if things work out, all these trials and tribulations will be nothing but a small bump in the road. One day, we will be together and nothing is going to stand in our way.
Stripped of all defenses. Vulnerable. You went straight for my heart
I dreamt you died. I was in the denial for a very long time. I kept talking to what I thought was your spirit, but maybe it was just my imagination, me hoping that I could still talk to you, that you weren’t gone. I kept begging your spirit not to leave and each time I did that, you’d disappear and I’d break down instantly. Some time later, I saw my bestfriend’s boyfriend propose. And as happy as i was for her, I crumpled to the floor because I never got to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m so glad it was all a dream. To hear your voice when I called even though it was so damn early, made me feel so much better. But I still cried. Yes I love you this much. Don’t forget that. I don’t want anyone else, just you. You’re all I’ll ever need.
life without love, is like trying to breathe but having no air.
(Source: your-faceislikeamelody)
Barney is right. I understand that feeling perfectly.
I hate being alone with my thoughts. I don’t know how I will ever get better with these thoughts forever flooding my mind.
